There are some things that are just too personal to share with anyone. We're allowed to choose what things we'd like to tell other people and what things we'd rather keep to ourselves. However, sometimes we crave to let everything out even though we know there are some secrets that we can just never allow to get out. They say it's bad to bottle things up inside, but in many situations, keeping things hidden is a whole lot easier than baring the truth. People from around the world took to the internet to share the secret that they are currently keeping from their loved ones. If you're currently dealing with a secret that's been eating you up inside, perhaps these stories can help you take comfort in the fact that you're not alone:
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#1 Think Twice
I'm currently working in a cafe. I work pretty hard and have more experience, so I get paid a bit more than other staff and they found out. This has changed how a few of them treat me. But they don't realize I'm in the process of buying the business and how they treat me or act towards me is going to influence if I renew their contracts or not.
#2 A 25% Chance
I am getting a biopsy on Friday. I may have cancer but I am not telling my siblings or my mom because she also has cancer and it would destroy her to know I might have it also. I am 47 and my sister, dad, uncle, and aunt all passed away from cancer. The doctor says the PSA level I have means I have a 25% chance of having cancer.
#3 A Test Of Loyalty
I know a couple that broke up about a year ago. They still are friends though and they even work together. I'm not supposed to tell anyone they broke up. After this long, I wonder if it's just a long, elaborate test of my loyalty.
#4 The Case Of The Ex
I suspect that my conversations with a friend are being sent to my ex, who is trying to bring me down, and I’ve started to spread false information to that “friend“ to truly see if my text messages are being leaked. Two people can play this game, and I may have the upper hand here. You play with fire, you get flamed back... It's that simple.
#5 A Cooler Story
Not keeping it anymore, but I was born with cleft lip and palate, so when people asked about my scars, I said I got into a knife fight. I was also like seven inches taller than everyone and a hockey goon, so all my private school friends thought I was just a really cool guy. I have since gotten the cleft lip and palate fixed, so I no longer need to tell that story.
#6 Stealing Toilet Paper
My family doesn’t know I walked out of my job nearly four weeks ago. I had two solid interviews that fell through afterward and I’m still looking. I think I’ll get a call back after the job interview I had today. I’m too embarrassed to tell them because I don’t want any more financial help from them. I’m late on rent and broke. The last time I went to my mom’s house, I stole a couple of rolls of toilet paper...
#7 A Milestone Anniversary
My coworker is going to propose to his wife once again next month on vacation with a new ring, then remarry her on the beach. He's a total square; the non-emotional type, but he was so giddy when he told me. She doesn't know, of course. It is common for couples to have one at a milestone anniversary, such as the 25th anniversary, so I think that's what they're having.
#8 A Dark Past
Two years ago on Christmas Eve, my mom and aunt got in a fistfight. An hour later, my mom was still crying and unloading everything on her mind. She told me all of these dark things that had happened to her when she was a kid. I literally had no idea what to say, I just let her speak. I have not talked to anyone about this, but I think about it every day. My heart just hurts for her that she had to go through that.
#9 Overwhelmed By Life
My secret? Among many things, I am very tired and overwhelmed by my entire life and have no idea what to do. My cat has something wrong with her bladder and I can’t afford to take her to a vet. I’m trying to find her a new home so she can have a better life. That's probably the biggest thing on my mind right now and it worries me every time I wake up.
#10 See Ya Later, Karen
That the operations manager at my work who is a jerk to the core (her name is actually Karen, shocker) is under investigation for several incidents that should hopefully get her canned. Also, I was the one in 10th grade that accidentally went #2 my pants in class and those were my boxers in the trashcan in the bathroom.
#11 Post-Grad Anxiety
I just graduated from college and now I’m really depressed. I’m supposed to be looking for a job right now but all I want to do is sleep. My friend comforted me a bit by telling me that the period of life is miserable. He even had a nervous breakdown. I’m doing much better and I'm in a good place now though. I just have to remember that things eventually will get better and to not be afraid to take risks.
#12 Moving On
I told my best friend, who knows I'm in love with him, that I'm moving on and trying to find someone else. But really I don't know if I'll ever actually move on, I just don't want him to feel bad. I have one guy I fancy, but he and I have this whole song and dance going on. Hopefully, I can follow that advice this time around. Otherwise, hopefully, there will always be more opportunities to not mess up too badly.
#13 Bottled Up
My depression hasn’t actually gotten any better and if anything, it has gotten worse. I felt so freaking guilty any time I’d talk to one of my friends about the way I feel, and I can't take it anymore. So now, they all think I’m doing a lot better and I don’t know what to do with myself. I don't want them to see me as a burden, so I just keep everything bottled up inside as I've always done.
#14 Pregnancy On The Low
My wife might be pregnant and she is really against me telling anyone (including family) until the three-month mark. Even though we might be buying a house soon, so those are two very big expenses starting at once and it scares the heck out of me. Though she recently told me that she was spotting and I figured that's normal, but this morning she told me that it's full-on period time. This relieves me but shes not feeling the best. She was late for three days and we had just put two and two together.
#15 Committing Fraud
I committed fraud to get out of school. I legit faked my mother's death certificate so I could leave with little repercussions after the add/drop period. I told everyone my mom passed away in a car accident and I had to leave to take care of the estate. I am doing much better mentally now. I refuse to ever do something like this again.
#16 I'm Mr. Lonely
I really do care about it that much, but I'm 29 and still a virgin. I was raised super religious so dating was out of the question. I started losing my faith when I was 23 (another secret.) I feel like I'm so far behind when it comes to dating that I never really found the courage to even ask anyone out. I'm so afraid that I'll end up lonely and leave this life alone.
#17 "Fair" Game
I let my cousin win when I play Smash Bros. with her and she always gets really happy when she wins. Lately, she’s been letting me win instead and I love seeing her smile when I win. She mains Peach and Daisy.
#18 A Wholesome Secret
My buddy and his wife are expecting their second kid. He got really tipsy one night and told me the news with the biggest smile on his face. I'm the only one who knows right now. My happy, wholesome little secret.
#19 Stuck In The Closet
I'm bisexual. Nothing bad will happen if I tell people, but I don't want to risk that either. My mom would probably tell me just to grow out of it. I'm 26. I also live with a "second" family and the "mom" has expressed that bisexuals just need to "make up their minds because you can't be attracted to both, that's just stupid." That was fun to sit through...
#20 The Worst Relapse
I've relapsed with my anorexia. I ate 626 calories today and burned 394. I'm going to see a doctor tomorrow because I've convinced everyone I'm tired, bruising easily, and having joint pain because I might have Lyme again, but deep inside I know it is probably my body struggling to stay alive. Doctors told me if I relapsed as bad as I was, my body probably wouldn't be able to handle it again.
I have a resting heart rate in the low 50s currently, and my heart rate drops as low as 40 randomly during the day. I feel like I'm going to pass out nearly every time I stand up. Burning off those calories tonight, I was literally doubled over, gasping for air, hands on my knees trying to not fall as the ground seemed to keep rushing up to my face, covered in growing black spots.
I know I've relapsed. I know this could end me. But it's not enough for me to overcome the messed up part of my brain that says "at least you'll die thinner."
#21 It Was That Serious
I only have cell reception in my front yard at my house and I was waiting for a really important phone call this morning. I had to go #2 super bad but couldn't go inside and risk missing the call, so I just went in my front yard. I covered it with leaves because it ended up being too big to deal with a doggie bag. It was a horrible, messed-up situation for me.
#22 On The Right Track
I've been working out in secret. I've been hiding my power level by wearing hoodies and wearing my hair down for the past three months even at the gym and at work. The plan is to go from skinny long hair to shred city crew cut and surprise everyone. So far, I’ve amassed 18 pounds, so things are on track! I can't wait to make my big reveal in a few months once I've dropped a bit more.
#23 Confessions Of A Shopaholic's Husband
My wife has a shopping addiction and has charged upwards of $100K USD to credit cards in furtherance of it. She was able to make the minimum payments herself and hide the full extent of the problem from me for a couple of years until it became too much to hide. She would always say, “No need to worry. I’ve got this,” and stupidly, I believed her. Our house is bursting at the seams with stuff to the point that we no longer have company or family over.
She is in therapy now and hopes to file for bankruptcy soon. She has also been getting rid of a lot of things. I’ve been bringing garbage bag after garbage of clothes to nearby donation bins and we’re selling some of the more valuable items. Still, I don’t know if I believe that she’s getting better or wants to get better. I still see old habits there, like overbuying groceries.
Over the last year, I’ve begun migrating our joint finances toward separate finances. I have my own bank accounts and have money from my paycheck directly deposited into them every week and have also been making a habit of getting cash back when I buy groceries or whatever and hiding it away in a little squirrel fund for myself. If I don’t see a change very soon, I will be using my little nest eggs to leave and start over.
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#24 Keep Clinging On
I had a great college experience and was fortunate enough to travel the world. I saw things and places that I couldn't imagine and it was inspiring. After graduation, I started a project to improve poor areas but I wasn't able to make a difference and got stuck in a terrible rut. Now my dad's slowly dying, my mom is blaming it all on my brother, my brother married an awful person, and every night I just want to give up. I don't see a path out of this, but I keep clinging on.
#25 Mini Getaway
There are nights when at around 12 or 1 a.m., I'll sneak out via my basement and go for a walk for about an hour or two. Most of the time, I go down to the creek nearby and sit while listening to music. Other times I go over to my boyfriend's place and we'll cuddle, play late night games, watch anime, or do the other option. Sometimes it feels like a mini getaway.
#26 Losing Faith
My parents are pastors of our own small church, I play drums and am very involved in everything there, but about four months ago, I just kind of stopped believing in God, and I was too afraid to tell anybody, I have recently told one of my closest friends, but I don't think I can ever tell my parents and I don't know what to do. I love my parents very much, but clearly, they would disapprove.
#27 Little White Lie
I was allowed to leave work early yesterday. I bought some chicken, came home and had a nice relaxing afternoon with just me and my dog. My girlfriend came home and I told her I had just gotten home myself so she wouldn't be mad at me for not doing chores all afternoon.
#28 Just Like Euphoria
My high school best friend was gay, and sleeping with a man that was 15 years older, had a wife and four kids, and was in the leadership of the local church for most of his high school career and a while after.
#29 Overcoming Trauma
I was teased daily when I was younger for liking a boy. Now, have trust issues so I can’t ask out anyone or say my crush's name in fear it’ll happen all over again, even though I know it won’t. Yes, I am talking to my therapist about it and getting help with overcoming it.
#30 Who Am I?
I never told anyone this, but I really need to get this off my chest. I'm attracted to both girls and boys, but I don't know to the extent. I know that there's a spectrum, but the confusion of questioning every day if I just like girls, just like guys, like girls more than guys, or like guys more than girls is absolutely killing me.
I question this every day and wonder what would happen if I told my family. I know my siblings would support me (not sure about my brother), but my mom's kind of iffy. I need her right now and I can't afford her to lose her or cause her any stress. I'm hiding who I am, but I don't even know who that is and that just hurts.
#31 Working With My Boyfriend
My boyfriend and I both work together, but no one knows we have been dating for over six years. A month after I started the job, my boyfriend quit his job, applied to mine, and my manager asked about his application since he used me as a referral. The manager referenced him as "my friend," and I just kind of went with it because I was worried he wouldn't get the job if we were in a relationship. It's been almost a year and now I feel like it's too far in to say anything. We've just pretty much passed it off as roommates since we live in an apartment together. My boyfriend even deleted his Facebook and I made mine private just in case.
#32 Feeling Stuck
I don't know if I still love my girlfriend. Arguing with her over little things every week drains me and makes me feel miserable. I just want to be free. However, if I were to end things with her I know it will be extremely hard for her and I wouldn't want to see her in that state. I don't know what to do, but I just want to stop feeling distressed when we are supposed to be progressing with each other.
#33 Never Satisfied
That I actually don’t like my career path anymore, and quite frankly I don’t think I’ll ever be satisfied in any job. Oh, and I keep thinking about joining the military even though I’m too old and poor health to do so now.
#34 Too Much Tragedy
I need pain meds due to a chronic condition, but some tragedies have happened lately and I want to take more than I should help kill the emotional pain too. I don't want to be sober. And today, I was crying on the way home from work and imagined the relief I would feel if I discovered I had stage 4 pancreatic cancer. How nice it would be to just get palliative care at home... I'm so tired. And this isn't even a depressive episode for me I'm realizing that I haven't wanted to live for a long time now.
#35 Secret Feelings
I'm deeply in love with one of my best friends. Let's call him R. The issue is, he lives in a different city from me. We previously dated over the Internet. This wouldn’t be an issue if I didn’t currently have a boyfriend. He’s my best friend and I care about him deeply, but I never have and never will love someone in the way I love R.
#36 Always In My Heart
That I have a crush on my best friend. I know that we'll never be together and I value our friendship a lot. I love him and care about him, and even if we'll never be boyfriend or girlfriend, he's still going to be someone I care about dearly.
#37 The Wounded Wingman
I THINK I have a crush on who is probably my best friend right now. Almost everybody who knows we’re close friends either thinks we’re going to date or thinks we already are. But I’m astonishingly bad at telling whether I like somebody or I LIKE somebody. As such, I’m trying to wingman with her for her crush, who is another close friend.
#38 Truck Tension
My dad's favorite old truck was his black 1994 Ford Ranger. He drove it for 10+ years and put over 300K miles on it for work. When he finally had to retire it, he couldn't let it go and kept it at a friend's farm and it became everyone's backup vehicle. He kept it inspected and it still looks really good for its age. The whole drive train from the transmission to the tires needs some work now, and he's been working on it in his spare time for a couple of years.
My secret is, I just got a new job that pays well enough that I may be able to afford a new, 2019 or 2020 Ford Ranger. I'm planning on getting it with as close to the same color and features as his truck was, and not telling him about it until I just show up with it at my parents' house. He loves cars, and that old Ranger so much, I know he'll flip out... And he's a very subdued person.
#39 Not Trying To Be Creepy
I have seen multiple female friends naked by accident. All times have been 100% honest mistakes, and I figure if I don't tell them it happened, no issues will be made. Plus, it doesn't affect my opinion on any of them, as they are still just platonic friends.
#40 A Big Regret
That I moved two states away to be with my girlfriend, pushing my graduation date a year farther out and putting me away from anyone I’ve ever met. Turns out, I’m not happy with her and I want to get out of this relationship but I can’t afford to live on my own. Plus, if I move back home, I’ll add at least another year of school. Not sure what to do about it.
#41 Changing Directions
The bar I work at doesn't know that, after three years of looking for a job in my field, I was just accepted into the air force for... a job in my field. I'll be leaving soon.
#42 Relationship Under Wraps
My partner is coming to visit me in August and my parents think she's just my friend whose coming to visit me from Germany. If my parents found out, I'd probably get thrown out.
#43 Losing Sleep
I've spent my entire life up to this point, 25 years on disability for bipolar. I'm finally ready to get off of it I believe and get a job but I'm terrified I'm going to fail so much so that it keeps me up at night. It's currently 1:09 a.m. I don't suspect I'll sleep tonight.
#44 In Love With My Best Friend
I really, really like my best friend. She's just got out of a long term mentally abusive relationship. Now's not exactly the right time to say.
#45 That's Rough
My buddy is planning on leaving his wife, mostly because he found out that his kid isn't actually his, and he suspects the one she's pregnant with isn't either. I don't know the full story, but I believe he found out from the other dude's girlfriend that she was cheating around the time she got pregnant. He got a paternity test done without telling his wife.